I just talked to Jodi and I guess Wade’s dream was a sex dream about me, which is almost as scary as him wanting to kill me. She said in the dream I was trying to seduce him. He thought I was trying to set him up to see if he would cheat on Jodi until I tried to kiss him then he said no, he couldn’t do that to Jodi. Weird and scary!!!

Date: Sun, 29 Sep 2002 21:24:41 -0700
From: “Wade Smith”
To: “Ericka Kimball”
Subject:

I ACCIDENTALLY ERASED YOUR WEB SITE ADDRESS AND COULDN’T FIND IT WITH SEARCH .HAD A REALLY WEIRD DREAM ABOUT YOU LAST NIGHT

I got this from my friend Jodi’s husband. He and I don’t get along all that well. So, this scares me. He probably tried to kill me!!! It’s good knowing he couldn’t find my site with search!!! I wonder if Jodi remembers the address? Hmmm….I guess we’ll see.

We went to an art gallery this weekend. I had never been to one before so I was nervous about going. The kids really liked it and I found 3 paintings I’m interested in doing my paper on. The one I really want to do I can’t find a picture or postcard and I don’t know if I can take a picture of it hanging in the art gallery. After the art gallery, we took the kids to our favorite coffee shop. We bought them cookies and root beer. They were so good and it was so cute to see them there. They like the art gallery too. Jaycie says she wants us to take them again and again. I want to take them to the Sculpture Garden but I don’t think we will have time before it gets real cold. But definately next summer.

I want to tell Tracy she will never be done. She will think about Danny for the rest of her life. Time lessens the pain but it never completely goes away. Tony and I talked about this a couple of weeks ago. He talked about a dream he had. I said the dreams are the worst because they are alive and seem so real. When you wake up from a dream you are off kilter for the rest of the day or rest of the week sometimes. I said Jill died almost 11 years ago and I still think about her everyday. And I didn’t see the things Tony saw. So I can’t even begin to imagine everything he thinks about when it comes to this day. I feel horrible for both Tracy and Tony. Tony said good things came out of Danny’s death too. He said him and Tracy would never be together if Danny was still alive. He wouldn’t have any of the things he does. I said the same about me and Ben. If Jill wouldn’t have died, I would have never met Ben because after Jill’s death Betty and I went to a whole new group of friends. At 17, her death was a turning point in my life. Betty went one way and I went the other. I went to the skaters and Betty went to the druggies. Seems so strange now to think back and see her doing all the things her and Jill were so against. Betty was hidden for so long in Jill’s shadow. When Jill died Betty went to the extreme to be noticed. She slept around and did a lot drugs. Ben actually dated her before me. Isn’t that funny? Thank god he didn’t sleep with her. Betty and I still write back and forth but we live two completely different lives.
I think Tony and Tracy are lucky because they are still in close contact with Danny’s family. They are able to see pictures and talk about him. It’s nice because they still have a little piece of him.

I got my rough draft back today. I guess mailing it didn’t take as long as I expected. I got a B+ on the rough draft. I’m so happy. She recommended I add my perception of Tami and her life. It shouldn’t take too long to make the changes so I’m hoping this weekend I can start on my next paper. I have to go to an art museum and do a paper on a sculpture or painting. It should be fun and I don’t think the paper will be as difficult as the interview paper was. I’m just so happy I did well on the interview paper. Now, I’m hoping for an A!!!

Max went to a pumpkin farm today. He got to ride on a tractor. He was so excited. Each child got to pick out a pumpkin to take home and he picked out a nice round one. I was impressed. He walked into school lugging his pumpkin saying, “Make room for the pumpkin boy!” Isn’t he so cute? Jaycie, of course, was jealous but she gets to go tomorrow.

I’m babysitting Cade today! He’s so smart. We were sleeping in my bed and he woke up and looked at me then made a little scream to wake me up. So I open my eyes and smile at him then shut my eyes again. He screamed again. Everytime I closed my eyes he would scream to get me to open them. It was so cute. He just loves it when Jaycie and Max play with him. He just follows them with his eyes where ever they go. When he sees Jaycie he gets a instant smile. He’s such a cutie pie!!

I handed in my rough draft of my interview paper on Saturday and my professor is mailing them back to us today for revision. She sent a mass e-mail concerning the most frequent mistakes. I think I might have made a major mistake but Jodi said not to worry until I get my paper back. This just sucks because I thought I was close to being done and I could start on the next paper. One nice thing is she put a letter grade on our rough drafts so we know where our paper stands. The grade doesn’t count it’s just an estimate but I think that will be so helpful. I hope I’m making a big deal out of nothing and that my paper is good and only need slight revision. But I have to wait until Friday or Saturday to know for sure.

Amanda, the girl who is living with us, got pulled over for the 10th time today and still no ticket. She always gets off with verbal warnings. I think she has only two written warnings. How lucky is she? Ben gets pulled over for the 1st time in like 6 years and gets a speeding ticket for going 6 mph over. What is that all about??? Luckily, I have never been pulled over but like Tracy says you have to speed to get pulled over.

What a rough night last night. Ben had a bad dream and screamed in his sleep at about 2 this morning causing me to freak out and start screaming too. We woke up both the children. Jaycie said she was all freaked out and Max said he didn’t want to sleep alone so they both ended up sleeping with us. It was so crowed and chilly. As I was trying to fall back asleep I kept thinking the kids are suppose to sleep with us when they have a bad dream not the other way around. I feel bad for freaking Jaycie out she really had a hard time getting back to sleep.

I went to Shopko today, they have started putting their Christmas stuff out on the shelves. How crazy is that? For god’s sake, let us at least get through Halloween. I love Christmas but seeing the stuff out this early is just plain wrong. I’ve even started my Christmas shopping but that’s because I’m a planner. I don’t want to really start gearing up for the holiday season until at least November. Pretty soon stores won’t even bother taking their Christmas stuff off the shelves. It will just be Christmas craziness all year round.